A break from the week

I'm home

The best part about being home on a Wednesday is that I'll go back to Irvine tomorrow night and I'll feel like the entire week is starting again as if it were Saturday. But it'll really be the beginning of Friday and the weekend will come so I'll feel like I turned back time and started a weekend all over again.

July
The best thing about July so far is that I get to start on a planner that I bought about 3 months ago. I bought it in April but couldnt use it because the first month on the planner was July. Didn't think the time would come so soon but here we are, and here I am, 3 months older, 2nd year of college under the table and the beautiful aroma of summer surrounding me. The non-best thing about July is that I have to pay rent. Money has been quite a scary thing to me these days but I know that it's because I'm letting it cradle me in its arms as if it could provide me with some comforting security that I know it would never provide for me.

It's only been 3 days but I'm pooped.

(haha)

Coffee-love
I've been trying not to drink as much coffee these days. But I must admit there is something strangely beautiful about coffee. Honestly, alot of the times when I'm drinking it I dont even enjoy it. Sometimes I feel so sick of it that I dont even want to drink it for another week or so. I felt like that about 2 hours ago but the thought of it is what brings me back. Do you ever experience something like that? I do. Sometimes I'll eat something for dinner and be so full and bloated that I would never want to eat it again, but turn me around once and you'll see me eating it again for breakfast. There was another example I wanted to share but I realized it would expose my secret so I erased it.


I wonder if my husband would let me...Would this be considered child abuse?

I'm too tired to go on
It's 9:15pm and I'm going to bed

but one last thing--
Today I was thinking about love. (wow, that sounded super lame..) HAHA, but I mean it-- I really thought about it. Not necessarily the cant-eat-cant-sleep-reach-for-the-moon-notes-on-my-car-window-flowers-on-the-bed-butterfly-stomachs-and-warm-snowy-nights kind of love, but the kind of love I have for people in general.

I searched a few passages in hopes to teach, correct, and sharpen my view of what love should be, and to see how I could better emulate the example of His love for us. As cliche as it may seem, this passage struck me: the well-known passage about Love (1 Corinthians 13). I used to always read this or hear it somewhere and just gladly nod my head in agreement to the various characteristics they would state about love. But as I read and re-read this passage today, really trying to see how well I've been doing, I noted the parts that I felt I miserably failed at on a day-to-day basis.


I honestly could have boxed every word in that passage, but I gave myself some undeserved slack. But I'm thankful for times God gives me to reflect and see that I'm alot farther away than I think, but I'm more thankful for the hope that He gives me in His love for me

In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us. 1 John 4:10-12

Give thanks-- Your perfect love, sleep