"hello?...oh hi!"

Today we had a rice cook-off and we began to talk about how, in the past few years, telephone talking has gone down the drain. As we were talking about it, I couldnt help but get sad as I remembered all of those times I had to resort to talking on the phone because I didnt have a texting plan and internet use was always limited because my mom had to use the phone (which was connected to the same line.) I remember when I first got my phone, my parents gave me 400 minutes a month to share with my sister and I remember I used to always have to record how many minutes I spent with each conversation to make sure I didnt go over. I remember talking on the phone for long hours at a time and never running out of things to talk about..and even when we did run out of things to talk about, we'd sit back and just share a wonderful moment of mutual silence. We never had to be talking the entire time, it was just nice knowing there was someone to automatically jump back to if you thought of something to share. I remember talking on the phone in the dark late at night, whispering so that my parents couldn't hear. I remember how nervous I was, wondering if my parents would do the occassional walk-in and I'd turn the phone upside down under my pillow and just begin to pretend I'm sleeping. I remember talking on the phone in the bathroom, outside even if it was in the middle of the night, and lying down on the floor of my pitch dark room. I remember falling asleep on the phone. I remember having to mute my phone if my mom was yelling at me and I was getting in trouble for something embarrassing. I remember crying on the phone. I miss laughing so loud on the phone. Talking on the phone is something so nice and it's such a shame that I can't share it with friends now. Although many of us have turned from our ammatuer phone-talking life style and have upgraded to cafe's and long talks over meals, I know that many of us have resorted to the convinient-yet-not-as-intimate online talking or communicating via text messages. Where did the phone talking go? When did it cease to exist until it was no more and long forgotten as if it were some old elementary school friend we vaguely remember? I miss the warm feelings I'd get when I heard the other person voice on the phone. I miss getting important phone calls, I miss phone calls full of truth and confessions, I miss phone calls of "i miss you"s and "hope you're having a good day". I even miss the fights over the phone, regardless of how stupid they were. I miss talking things out over the phone. Despite how intimate and how much "better" talking in person is, there's just something about talking on the phone.. I guess just the feeling of being so far but feeling so close.. whether its between friends, or family, there's just some *zing to it.... Sigh I cant wait to have those back. Maybe I'll get rid of my texting plan........just kidding. But I really do miss it, as gay as it sounds, especially since its the 10th time I'm saying it. Sigh Texting and online talking feel so dry now.......my new goal is to cut down, and call more..I need to get rid of my minutes anyway..


I think I have like 10,000 roll-over minutes. Please call me and talk to me

Give thanks-- good memories, bad memories, memo esther tracy who really pulled through and cooked so much rice today, productivity, bringing me to my knees.