So for all those who have been faithfully reading my not-so-interesting, self-absorbed blog-- you will have witnessed the rollercoaster-kind-of relatiomship I've had with Biochemistry. Alas, my midterm is in 7 and a half hours and I am back at gateway, where I have spent many hours and nights in. It's sorta comfortable now. I've got a system down and it's always nice seeing people I know once in a while, and driving back with eugene with the cold rush of air that always welcomes us out the door.
Cups and cups of coffee, shots over shots of espresso, nights of not being able to sleep, seeing D-Glucose in my head whenever I close my eyes (even for prayer), countless times of complaining, time-lost, time-spent, it's been a ride. The first half of my quarter is over, and after that hour test tomorrow morning I will no longer need to retain 99% of the information I had so faithfully devoted myself to understanding and memorizing for the past 5 weeks.
To my surprise, and relief-- I feel somewhat ready. I've re-done every single bio tutoring, larc, discussion lecture I had done thus far-- and I have done over 7 practice tests and I'm currently in the middle of one now. I'm scared because I'm usually not to good with tests. Tests aren't my forte, I guess you can say. But I have hope! Regardless, it's all under God's plan and at least I can confidently and hoenstly say that I did the absolute best I possibly could.
This weekend we had a 'Winter Retreat' for Berean. The rain poured and the usually-very-hot palm desert wasn't so hot after all. The majority of us wore boots and sweaters for most of the retreat, and as refreshing as it was to feel cool air in a relatively hot place, the retreat overall was so refreshing and I really do feel recharged and ready to start again. (Just what I needed..!) Despite the motivation, inspiration and encouragements I've received in the past 2 days, I know that's definitely not enough for me to really carry it out into my life now. Now it's up to me to cling tightly to the things I've learned, to constantly pray for God to renew the motivation in my heart and that He would give me the strength to perserve. My heart feels warm and my 'feeble arms' feel able again and I have this strange overflowing joy inside my heart.
I want to be better---
at sharing, at praying, at learning, at loving, at trying, at encouraging, at shining.
We'll see how it goes/
Soli Deo Gloria. (4lyfe)
Give Thanks-- Gateway, confidence?, prayer, scripture, the harvest, Cha for tea, kevin who makes me laugh even though his burps are hateful, eugene for laughing with me every single time even when he desperately needs to study, berean, pastor pk, pc, ac, elder phillip, vince, joe, the way You refresh me
Good luck!
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