rain, rain rain

Sometimes I just need God to lay me down on his lap and let me nap a little. Everything around me is causing me to hate everything. I, in myself, am not capable of doing this-- at all. Although I recognize that I fail everyday to live up to my calling, to be the person that I should be, to love the way I am supposed to love, to rejoice because I have all the reason to rejoice-- I fail. Easier said than done for sure-- but this time it's just really hard. I really wish I could go somewhere far away.... God, comfort me.... :(

It's raining today.
and as I was feeling the coldness of the rain hitting me, and all this frustrating heating the sides of my face-- I kept thinking about this picture.It'd feel so good to just surrender like that right about now.

aaaah...7 shots of caffiene, 4 hours of sleep, 4 days til bio chem midterm, retreat in 20 hours, 10 people getting mad, 6 hours of tiring work, 0 hugs, shivering from cold weather, wet clothes, lack of confidence, lack of preperation, feel discouraged by myself and other people = so hard to rejoice. but I must..

Fall on me, ever so gently--breathe on these dry bones
shower me with Your love--washing my f i l t h y stains
and break these chains,
set me free.

Give thanks-- triple shot caramel macchaito, discovering green tea latte with vanilla, feeling like a failure with eg, feeling ready with eg, my second of peace, sanctification through suffering and Your grace that is clearly evident even in hard times, even when its hard for me to see-- 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for C h r i s t's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. -2 Corinthians 12:9-10