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Hi, I had a hard day today.
Okay I lied-- thinking back to today it wasn't that hard. But alot of things made my heart feel heavy and I feel so exhausted from hauling it around the entire day.

3 things

1) I always say the wrong things.
I am such a failure in so many ways. I don't know how I have friends I am a bad person. ugh

2) I am a pushover
so today this random Italian guy wanted me to help him out with something so I agreed to help him. He said he needed to practice his communication skills so I sat with him in front of University Town Center and let him to talk to me about whatever he talked about. He handed me papers and started explaining things and I was really convinced that his only intention was to have someone to practice his communication skills on. Figures that he is trying to sell me magazines and starts to ask for my address.. this is what happen
"My address? Why my address? I'm not interesting in purchasing anything"
"But I already wrote your information on this form. If you dont go through with it i'm going to lose 100 points. You dont want me to lose 100 points do you??"
"Wait, what? No.. I dont really want to buy anything from you, I'm sorry I cant help you, Kevin"
"What do you mean. Then why did you make me sit here and waste my time with you."
"You told me you wanted to practice your communication skills and that's all you told me so that's why I agreed"
"Well you're holding the pamphlets in your hand arent you? That means you want to buy them"
"You handed them to me what did you want me to do???"
"Oh so you're retarded...I didnt know you were retarded"
"mm..ha I guess I am sorry"
"Oh no it's fine. It's okay that you're retarded and slow, keep your attitude"

........ o...... kay. completely ruined my day. I was on my way to Cha and I ended up buying a large with pearls because I was sad..

3) People are scary
I sort of want to be alone for now haha..I dont know sigh I hate it


I have failed yet again today
but He has already won the victory for me;
so I'll try again tomorrow..


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Give thanks-- for it has already been done.


And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
Romans 8:30