I like lists

I've always been a list-person.
What's a list person you ask? I can't function without making lists. I make a list of stuff I have to remember to do the next day, on the night before-- so I dont forget. When I study I make a list of lectures I must go over, pages I must read, and terms I need to remember. I make a list for the books I want to read in the specific order I want to read them in. I make a list of things I need to bring from home, take home and things I want to buy on my way from home. I make a list of people to eat with, emails to send. I make a list of chores to do: laundry, take out the trash, dust the table, wipe down things with alcohol swabs. I make a list of what kind of things I want to buy next time I want to go shopping, and I eliminate in due time so that I dont end up splurging and buying too much. I need to start each day with a to-do list at hand. I am just a very list-y person.

I guess if you've been following my blog for some time you might have noticed. I frequently make lists of goals I have, things I want to fix or imporve on, and if I ever dont have much to say I just make a list of random things I want to share.

Last night before I slept I made about 5 lists about what kind of things take up most of my time, the people and things that I invest my time and energy in the most, what the important things in my life were over the urgent things. I've never realized this, but there is such a big difference between urgent and important. Although urgent things are demanding, and require much from me-- I find that they are not far as vital to my life and my well-being than the important things are. It's hard to distinguish the two, but last night I was able to see how consumed I've been with the urgent things that I've really lost sight of the important.

Since we're talking about lists, I'll leave one before I leave for class.

A few things that I've realized about myself in the past few days

1. I am such a poisonous, evil person inside. My goodness.
2. I have bad time-management
3. I have little if not any patience.
4. I have now resorted to choosing sleep before many things.
5. I lack consistency
6. I am too slow to listen, too quick to speak, and too quick to anger
7. I'm selfish with my time when I'm busy
8. I don't pray enough


My "Catch-up" week is going okay
But I feel overwhelmed because I feel like there is not enough time

Today is a new day!

Give Thanks-- lists, grocery lists, new days, long sleep, realizing how entangled I am via journaling

:o/ sigh